So I have been thinking a lot lately about stick-to-it-tiveness, yes, that is my word. I thought that I did not have any BUT I have been with my husband for 10 years. How can I say I don't have sticktoitivness?? I mean being married is the hardest and the best thing I have ever done. So I will not say that I do not stay with things, what I need is to be inspired and be passionate about something and then I give my all. It seems as though he is the only thing that I have felt passionate and inspired about in the past 10 years. Growing up I would say it was volleyball, I really loved it and was pretty good at it. My love for it has waned in the past few years though. I decided to go to Ghana and that seemed like it would never happen, it took me almost 2 years to get my shit together and go but once I really in my heart decided to go, it happened. Since getting back I have signed up for a triathlon, started the volunteer process at a local shelter but I have not really followed through with either of these ventures. I have been beating myself up a little feeling like I wasn't putting effort towards these things. I realized last night talking to J I was not excited about either of these, more like a check them off my list of 100 things to do before I die kind of a thing, not inspiring.....besides I am terrified of pool drains and I asked my husband if I could train with out getting in the pool, of course his response was, anything is possible, ever the optimist he is, I was hoping I could just not do it :)
As I was walking home from coffee this morning I realized once again that I tend to do all or nothing with just about everything I do. Over and over the lesson for me right now has been about balance. So in an effort to not go so crazy, my first commitment is to this blog. I will write in it everyday for one week, starting today. That is easy, setting myself up for success!
Thank you.
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